Last day of March!

March, in my opinion, was a good month for everyone yeah? The good stuff way outbalanced the bad stuff, and we should all celebrate for being such good people.

Cheers!

So we were supposed to play basketball today, postponed from yesterday due to the weather (stupid rain) but we have to wait till Saturday morning then (stupid rain).

Anyway, the day was pretty boring. And I have to say I'm getting quite to be a pro in playing Sims. I don't care, I just do whatever it takes. I was promoted from Security Guard to Police Chief in about a day of playing.

So yeah. Boring day. It was a good month!

Thank you!

Metal Amulet

One day, I found a paperclip on my computer table.

I was going to straighten it, but it broke at a joint. I played with the two broken ends and it turned out like this:



So okay the next day I looked at it, still on the computer table and I decided to continue. I took out more paper clips. All of them were broken at that same joint. Must be in the genes. I looked at it:



I decided to wear it on a chain. A very thin one. Jo looked at it and I looked at it and we just shook our heads. He said, "You a girl?" Next day he handed me a thicker chain I found in school the other time, without the pendant. I looked at it and I thought, "Much better".

I was stuck on that thing. that night I had more paper clips and a thin chain. I fiddled around. This was what I got:



I looked at it, cocked my head and thought it looked like a damn hornet's nest. No matter. It looked fine enough. I brought it out one day. Had two girls comment on it. One said it "is.... creative?" and the other said "uh... nice".

I don't what to do. I thought it looked good.

Last night I was on it again after a few days not wearing it, and added all my available clips. Some of the shorter parts fell out, and I can't remember where to put them, so I left them out. I took the chain out, and retied it so it's firmer.

And I got this on my neck last night:



It looks smaller because it's taken further away.

Tell if it's good or not. If it sucks, try not to sound too obvious.

Monday.

First of all, a note to the crazy brit goat I just got rid of: Get lost, okay? Shoo. No you didn't giggle, I'm sorry. You bleat. Goats bleat.

And if you're still so f-ed up about the word "giggle", I'll even change the post for you, free of charge!

***

Boring day. Forget about it.

Jo and Jiawen came over. Again.

Ok, so okay, then yeah, they left and uh, and then mm hmm.

And I got rid of an insane Brit sheep. I mean goat.

Ah.

I never f-ing learn, now do I? Typing one big f-ing chunk of stuff and then for some stupid f-ing reason, the f-ing window has to f-ing close. What the f- is that? I have a f-ing lousy computer, that's what.

I woke up in the morning. Actually I didn't. I only got up at around noon. I was zoning and I did the stuff you do when you wake up. I forgot what I ate, and I started playing Age of Empires 2 on my sister's com. Then, an assignment: Get lunch.

Okay, I didn't have a problem with that. Except that when I came back I was told I had 15 minutes to go meet the guys. I went "what the hell" and so they waited a bit longer before meeting at the MRT Station while I ate, showered, and went to Woodlands MRT Station on foot.

We were supposed to go to Nanyang Polytechnic with Jo to hand in his appeal letter (which was late), and we got in with the courtesy of some of the students there as they were leaving. Loophole in the security.

We walked around a near empty building, and couldn't find anybody who looked important enough, and the security guard was damn hostile. Fortunately I wasn't very near him.

So we left, and Jo said we would walk to Ang Mo Kio to look for jobs. At first I was "Oh, okay, jobs, yeah." And then I went "walk!?"

My body is not going to forgive me for how I've been treating it. Like I said, I walked to the station, stood on the train, walked around NYP, and now I’m going to walk to Ang Mo Kio, which, I would say is about one and a half kilometres away.

Halfway there, I was lucky. It started to rain! Later I found out that it wasn't really lucky for me. We took cover on a covered walkway, which led to NTUC Fairprice. I'm not sure if this is the main branch, but being the biggest damn branch I've seen and a large building nearby with the NTUC logo explains a lot. Some Ang Mo Kio Secondary girls were up ahead selling stuff for NKF, in front of the only entrance/exit. We played cool and went past safely.

In there, we got ourselves drinks, and when we came out, the charity girls were still there but the rain got heavier. It took a while, and the impending approach of the charity girls, for us to decide we should head back into the supermarket where we were safe.

We got snacks and more drinks, and ate in the cover of the sidewalk while we watch the rain slow down to a drizzle, with only a few drops every other second.

We went past a shop where we could play pool, but for $6 an hour, and then to Popular, where we briefly contemplated enquiring about jobs and Jo got himself a comic. We walked some more, and we a saw a giant poster (by giant I mean a storey tall) and decided to check out this large comic store.

Did I say it was large? Sorry, my mistake. It was the biggest freaking comic store I've ever laid my eyes on. It isn't just a dozen shelves of comic books. It's a dozen shelves of comic books, a whole range of latest anime VCDs released here, about fifteen computers for internet usage, four PS2s and Xboxes each, and a whole range (about 4 metres across) of candy, anime related or not. And it greets you with a television set showing you Hikaru no Go. And a giant Xbox box.

We left eventually. We went into the bookstore next to it, which Kok Siang calls "Popular version 2" and just walked through it. We went down from another elevator behind the bookstore, and decided we should go home.

We took a MRT crammed full of people alighting at Yishun, and went back to Causeway Point, where we had our dinner at Long John Silvers. Saw Nikki and Cheryl there. We took awhile before ordering because 1) we were busy preparing the money first, and 2) nobody wants to go do the ordering. So guess who did it?

I guess it's pretty obvious. I was staring at the girls while I queuing up because Cheryl was doing this weird action, and when they saw me staring, they did their thing: breaking into giggles.

So I got the food. We ate. And then we separated, leaving Jo and me while they went home. I stayed because I received news that his parents were going to take him out for dinner, and I was raring to going. But it turned out it wasn’t exactly how I thought it was. We had Thai food (the Tom Yam soup got me), and then walked around and we browsed magazines at a 7-11 nearby.

Soon we got back into the car with Jeremy, and it took nearly a half hour for their dad to come back. We drove about twenty metres down the road, and picked up their mum. We came back, and they dropped me off.

I came home, and I watched the England - Northern Ireland match. Goalless at half time but 4 goals in about twenty minutes into the second half sealed the match 4-0 to the English lads.

Sweden won 3-0 against Bulgaria, and I didn't care about the rest.

So I came in. Typed a whole lot of stuff. Then the stupid window closed. And then I typed this on Word just to be save. Even saved it in a file on the Desktop.

I tried the editing thing. Stupid window closed again.

Looking

For a job.

Yes, the trouble shunning me is looking for ay job. Any recommendations? If you want to hire me, please do contact me.

Got lobang must tell me de hor!

Wasted.

Today I was supposed to accompany Jo and Jiawen to go to their respective Polytechnics to appeal for different courses.

Long story short, time wasted.

Went to NYP. Saw the E4 girls gang. Saw Peiying. And then took a taxi to Ngee Ann Poly for nothing. Then walked all the way down hill to this place where I stupidly went to buy expensive food, and then we went to Beauty World for LAN.

It was pretty boring. But I found some interesting stuff.

It was about 6pm by the time we were on the bus back to Woodlands. Then we ate at Causeway Point. Went to see Gab for a second. And then went home.

Blah blah blah.

Now my metal amulet is Level 3. It looks like a darn hornet's nest. But it looks damn cool. Haha.

JAE posting results.

I got into my first choice.

Yay.

Digital Entertainment Technology.

I thought it was popular. 14 and I got it? It has to be partly due to a miracle or the work of the naysayers (don't apply, it's popular).

Anyway. So Jo got into Mechatronics. Which really isn't what he wanted. He got 16, so I guess the cut-off point would be either 14 or 15. So he wants to appeal. We're going to NYP tomorrow morning, and then maybe we could go play pool or something.

So.

Yeah, I'm lucky when it matters. It's like life playing this joke on me like "Oops, you can't get that, nor that, nor that, nor that and that and that" and then when I feel like giving up it goes "Here's what you want".

And I'd be like "what?" and then continue to try and try again. It's like 4D. You buy for like forever, and then when you feel like quitting you strike. You'd be like "wow" and then you'd be buying for another couple of years.

So yeah, I'll be alive for another few years.

See you around then.

This is troublesome.

I can't find anymore stuff to blog about anymore. My life gets boring. Sure, I watched a movie today.

Hitch.

I keep having ideas to type about and then when I get down to them I get frustrated. I type and type and then I feel like I said a lot of stuff people can pick on and I just go "Forget it" and end off the whole thing quickly.

My computer gives me loads of problems.

Nothing is fun on the PS2 anymore.

My handphone is about as noisy as an old folks' home. Occasionally you get visitors, but they're always the same few people. And then it's quiet most of the time.

I happen to be the biggest loser in you can find. I watch Hitch, I look at Albert, I see "Hey, that's a lot like me". And then I realise I'm worse off. And there's no date doctor an ex-loser can refer me to.

Forget it.

Bye.

Daze.

I had an incredibly horrible nightmare last night.

I dreamt that I got an Uzi and was shooting everyone I see. Then when the clip ran out I got a Glock. I shot more people. That wasn't the worst part.

I aimed, and I shot at my dog. And even though it was a dream I could feel the recoil on the handgun, I could feel the blood splat on my leg.

And then I crouched down and I was screaming with tears like a madman.

When I woke up I went to look for my dog. He's still alive.

I guess the plan to see what happened at The Sorrow if I killed everyone I see backfired on me psychologically.

Maybe games shouldn't be made so real after all. I'm fine with my enemies just falling and blinking and disappearing.

I'm creeped out. Bye.

I really wonder...

Let's just say I found some stuff really depressing. I'm not a friend to you people at all, now am I?

Sometimes people say all these crap about how friendship or love isn't about reciprocating your efforts. These people say that only because they never feel the same way. Never. How would you feel, you ask them. They would say simply that they wouldn't care. Because they're not actually in this state.

Being selfish is being human. Being alive. There's nothing wrong. Nothing wrong. Laws and ideologies that exist today exist because of a few specific people. A few specific people that command a lot of respect. A few people that would affect society greatly. They alone possess these ideals, and when they promote it, they do so with their reputation. Then these ideals are effectively etched into the peoples' minds, and these new values get passed down generation by generation, until when this person dies and another person who would command greater respect and changes these values.

However, long before such things existed, humans acted like animals. Humans were just another species of animals in the world. No distinctions. That was before humans promoted themselves to be the dominating species of the world.

It was kill or be killed. Simple.

Who cared about morals? What the hell was that? I'm stronger, he's weaker, I get the food. Simple. And ideals and moral values came in.

I do not deny the benefits it brings. But look at the damage it did. To the world, physically. Hunting is done not for food anymore, but for body parts. Rhinoceros horns, elephant tusks, the furcoats of various animals.

For fun.

Pollution. Irony is I'm typing all these on the computer, burning away natural resources.

...

Guess what, you can forget about this post. I typed all of that just to make myself feel better.

Ciao.

I can't hear...

I'm not deaf.

It's the computer... It's mute. Now I can't play music, I can't play funny videos, I can't play games effective for most.

And worst of all... I can't watch Naruto.

AHHHH!!!

Ahem.

Now I'm freaked out.

Anyway, it was better than before.

What's the deal?

Yesterday was White Valentine's. It's exactly a month after Valentine's.

It's supposed to be a time when the girl gives the guy something else, to thank him or something (I don't know, never had one).

So you guys heard about the story where the girls go comparing gifts right? Like "Oh, I got more flowers" or "oh, I got more chocolates" or something like that.

I don't know, but are the guys doing that? Even so, they'd be like "oh, I got something" or "oh I got nothing I don't care".

Not that I know.

So the day went okay... Suikoden is about as boring as any other FF-style RPG.

Anyway.

I'm incredibly bored right now. And incredibly stumped that poker cards were devised using astronomy.

Ciao.

I feel like...

In an attempt to see if the wiring was the problem, I have moved my sister's com to my room. Now both computers are facing me while i sit on my bed, and I feel like I'm someone whom secret agents call "Mission Control".

In any case, I called the hotline anyway. I solved the problem. Great.

I'm a genius! He just told me to do the stuff I already checked. Except for "Ping", which was not useful.

So he was telling me to Network Connections, and I found LAN disconnected. I was like, "what?" and double-clicked it. It ran for a while, and it says connected.

I opened a browser and ta-dah! It was connected. Good.

Turns out the problem wasn't the main computer, it wasn't the router, it's wasn't the wiring.

It's this stupid f-ing com with the wrong settings.

I rock. Yes, I do.

Not without any help, but yeah. I rock.

The End...

In Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater, there is a special unit called Cobra, much like Foxhound in MGS. The soldiers in Cobra were named after the emotion they carry into battle.

There's The Pain, The Fear, The Sorrow, The Fury, The End("for true oblivion", like The Boss says), and The Joy a.k.a. The Boss.

8 days. Just eight.

Joy is too far away.

I have nothing to Fear.

Neither am I in Fury.

Sorrow eludes me.

But I am numb from the Pain.

I feel... Nothing. True oblivion. As if nothing happened.

Truly... The End.

The pain...

So I've been hooked with the PS 2 these few days...

Got to complete Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater last night. It was nice.

I'm eating unsweetened chocolate right now...

It's bitter.

Like me.

Friday.

I realise this, but I know I haven't been blogging for some time now.

These couple of days were quite fun.

Jo brought his PS2 over yesterday.

And left it here.

I'm like "omfg you r0x0rZ teh big one111!"

Yeah.

I wanna have fun, but they're watching TV now, so later.

If you're going to be crawling around a forum, here's a headstart on forum decorum (hey, that rhymed!).

I fear for this entry...

I might not complete it. But then, if I don't, you won't be reading this.

So anyway.

My computer is getting just a little f-ed up, so I think I might want to do this very quickly and simply.

I withdrew from school. I went to school, heard that only nine people went to school yesterday, handed in my card, watched the same part of the same movie during GP with another class, and left the school after informing Tangster.

I watched Assault On Precinct 13 at West Mall. The movie was... Well... Predictable. Kinda like reading a model 'O' Level essay: Short time-frame... That's about all I can remember about 'O' Level essays. And yeah, characters, right? Duh. Rising action? It was action all around, with guns, special forces (I'm gonna find out what's AV5 or something). Resolution? Not really. The starting kinda reminds me of New Police Story though. Main character loses teammates and gets shot in the leg during a mission a long time ago, and dwells in self-pity. Sexy female shrink tries to "psychologize" (that's from the movie I saw during GP. Is it an actual word?) the main character. Enter "Big Shot Bad Guy". Bad guy becomes good guy, good guy becomes bad, fights happen. Bam Bam Bam. You don't who's good and who's bad, and then boom! Ethan gets shot in the leg again.

I wouldn't say the movie was great. I liked the tactics, though. I bet that was all the movie had to offer for most people.

So after that I came back, and then I slept and then I got really pissed off about this computer and then I typed this...

Hey...

The com isnt hanging. Thanks, com. I love you.

Of Irony... And Iron.

You know what's ironic? That dull guys like me get girls who'd grow old with you, and cool guys like Ben Affleck get dumped a dozen times... By the same girl!

What's also ironic is that all the rich, posh, people play a sport come up by some dirty men who wear skirts and not care. What's the sport? Golf. I mean, just listen to what Robin William says. *WARNING: Offensive Language* (Right click on the link and click "Save Target As...")

*WARNING: Offensive Language*

Yeah.

A Day To Remember.

Don't ask me why. It's for me to know, and for you to find out.

A letter to the MOE

To all you numb nuts at MOE,

You know, you have to come and implement that stupid, crappy way of JAE this year. What the hell is wrong with you? Do you people not see the flaws of modern technology? You guys are educated people, right? I wonder if you study economics. You see, in economics, it's all about demand and supply. Get it? You see, in our situation right now, we have:

Demand: Over 40,000 students.
Supply: Obviously not enough.

And it has to be in the year when the demand is highest for the past and next 20 years. What, can't you afford more servers? You are the ones who implemented this; you are the ones who should be making it work.

Guess what? It doesn't!

Who can solve the problem? You? Hah, don't make me laugh. You say "Alert: 2. We are currently experiencing high usage traffic. Please be patient as the system response may be slow. You may wish to avoid peak periods between 11am ~ 1pm and 4pm~6pm."

Yeah, sure, is "12am~2am" a peak period as well? I don't know, but your crappy server is still busy. If this is like this at this kind of time, I really cannot imagine the amount of crappiness you'd reach during your designated peak hours.

Look, why give yourself so much trouble and implement this stupid thing? Why can't we do this how everybody did before us? Do you really know what us students and our parents want?

No!

You really think we want convenience? That, oh, we're happy just because we can do everything on the computer (which some do not have) and on the internet (which, again, some do not have)? No, we don't care about that. We don't care about how convenient it's going to be. We won't mind if we can't slack on our asses to do this.

All we want is a peace of mind. Simple as that.

My parents stayed up until a while ago just to see if it'd work at the wee hours of the night. It still didn't, by the way. Why? Because they were worried. Worried about whether I'd even be able to apply at all.

My dad said he wants to call you guys first thing tomorrow. I'm wondering if he could even connect through, seeing as how you people have such thick skulls. Forget about sending e-mails, I'd bet your inbox is crammed with complaint mail.

So all in all, please stop doing funny things like these. All the time you think, "Oh, this should be good" and do it. That's so ironic, isn't it, in your position? You do this, people complain. You do that, people complain.

Well, too bad.

If you had some decent IT people around they could have told you that such an overwhelming amount of people trying to access one small server could cause a overload soon enough.

And peeps, the internet is not like the CBD. It's got traffic all the time. There really is no peak or non-peak hours, okay?

Good.

Yours sincerely,
Chua Zhaohan

Choices, Choose, Choice, Chosen.

Choices: Pending.
Choose: Pending.
Choice: Pending.
Chosen: Pending.

If I choose the 'A' Levels route, it's Innova or Yishun.

If I choose to get a Diploma, it's Nanyang, Singapore or Ngee Ann.

Okay, today I tried to go to the JAE site to see what my options were, and then I forget my SingPass. I max out the number of tries I have, and it gives me a timeout. How's that?

And then I remember it.

So anyway.

My choices are Innova Science, or Yishun Science. Maybe Pioneer. Either one, or I take a Diploma. There is simply no point to go far away to Serangoon or whatever, and I have too many points to go to better JCs.

I shortlisted the courses I'm interested in:

SP
- Diploma in Banking & Financial Services
- Diploma in Media & Communication
- Diploma in Aerospace Electronics

NYP
- Diploma in Digital Entertainment Technology
- Diploma in Media Studies & Management
- Diploma in Financial Services
- Diploma in Nursing

NP
- Diploma in Banking & Financial Services
- Diploma in Aerospace Technology
- Diploma in Mass Communication
- Diploma in Health Sciences (Nursing)

Yeah, I know. I've got choices from all the faculties. So what? These are the ones I like.

And don't mock me for even considering Nursing yet. It's got good prospects.

Ciao. And yeah, this isn't really a good time to blog.