Uneasiness

I've been feeling antsy for the past 2 hours. Not to be confused with angsty, which apparently isn't even a real English word, I just wanna get up and run.

I also have Heroes 119 and have no method to watch it. It may be one of the many factors for my agitation.

Will attempt to solve problem. Feeling so agitated I wanna...

(later)

I just came back from a pace around my station. Excuse me while I go for another.

Friends.

The concept of friendship. Is it complicated? Hardly. But when it comes, you understand almost immediately. That is the wonder of it.

I have understood it perfectly. That the value of the many "friendships" I hold so dearly were false. Inflated. Unreliable. They exist for the sake of their existence, and signifies nothing. It does not bear any meaning nor purpose. Except for the times where their skills are needed. Same goes for the other way round. I mean nothing until I am needed.

"Is it just me?" you ask. I can tell you that it is not. Somebody close once told me about the friends of someone else. That his friends were all bad. They would ask him out when there was spending to be done, when there was playing and having fun. But when they went out to start a business and if there was anything good, he was not in it.

The situations we are in are very similar, no? I have many groups of "friends". But when the time came I knew. I knew what they were. They were anything but. I have few to none friends. I wouldn't go so far as to call them "true friends" but they are what they are. Friends. True friends... I doubt they exist.

Don't spill your pity on me. I don't deserve it and I don't need it. Save it for the disabled. Or cancer patients. Or orphans. Because this isn't a tragedy.

It's just sad. Sad, but not a tragedy. So save your sympathy. Give it to someone else.

I am a sad, sad man.

It beckons.

School is starting soon.

The thing about games like KotOR II is the bugs in the game that cause the game to be stuck, and can never be won. It sucks I tell you, because of that bug I have to replay and this time I'm gonna be a badass mofo who shoots his mouth off everywhere.

I also get to zap people with lightning. Way cool.

We are experiencing technical difficulty

It gets better and better. First the card doesn't work, I bring it to the office and they tested it and it was fine and now it still doesn't work. On another com.

I am accepting all donations to keep my sanity. For a hug, call 1900-112-HUGZ. For a kiss, call 1900-112-KISS. For a kiss on the lips, please leave an e-mail address so we may contact you directly. We thank you for your contributions. See how I referred to me as "we"? Your donations are very important to us.

School starts in a week. And I still haven't completed C&C3. It's a shame, really.

Well. I hope my 7800 GT isn't really dead.

Back to basics

It would seem my old template has malfunctioned in some way and I will now use a basic template provided by Blogger; the same one I used for the first time when this was started years ago.

Speaking of using old stuff, C&C 3 has been great. However, the strategy for winning missions remain relatively unchanged throughout the C&C games: Build a fuck-load of tanks and mow the base down.

I'm kind of more interested in the multiplayer strats but I don't see myself as a competitive online player.

My 7800GT has gone unconscious or worse, dead. I am now using the X300 that was in the original package in the com. I'm looking forward to getting it fixed or changed, because it's still under warranty like the guy at Ban Leong said.

I'm really into Weird Al songs these days. Real fun.

There's this Game Design Master Course held by this French guy who used to work in Ubisoft. His English is heavily accented and thank goodness for French lessons that I'm able to pick out some stuff he says in French unintentionally or the words from the accent. It was an okay day until God of War happened.

God of War is exactly what it is: a god. I can't believe I missed such a great game until today. I was in charge of most of the gameplay while he explains gameplay elements and things that they had that were really cool to help gameplay and immersion.

There was a little minigame that would remind everyone of Hot Coffee. And it was beneficial to the player too. Very interesting.

Today I was left out of the loop of a movie quickie. They got together, watched, and dispersed. I wasn't really interested in the movie (Mr. Bean's Holiday? Puh-leeze), but I was never told of it. Not until my sister came home and I asked her where she went.

It seems like the message is clear: A group without me is perfectly fine.

So it will.