My Problem

Is the fact that I tend to talk nonsense non-stop.

So much so it's not nonsense anymore. It's an irritant.

So irritating it causes many bad things to happen.

People shun me. Dismiss me immediately.

I am feeling that bit of sadness in me.

This depression spell is taking longer than I thought to recover. It reminds of that spell a long way back. I remember crying.

I'm not crying now, no. It's just that...

This spell is slowly shaving me down instead of that old one, which quickly chopped me up. It's more gruelling because... It still hurts.

Stupid holidays. Stupid Chinese New Year. Seeing them again... Reaffirmed my status in that circle. That I was insignificant. Someone to use and throw away. Pay no mind.

Ignore. Kick around. Shoo. Get mad at.

Humiliate. Reject. Abuse.

Forget.