Likes and wants

I like being happy. Everybody likes being happy. Being happy is a nice feeling. It makes the people around you happy. You do good things when you're happy.

I want to be miserable. So miserable that no matter what happens I don't have any expectations. The feeling of knowing exactly what to expect and nothing else. I won't put everything into false hope. I won't When I do I'll never get disappointed. I'll be surprised, but never disappointed.

I like being smart. Everybody likes being smart. Being smart is good. I can point out or think of something faster than a lot of people. You do things efficiently when you're smart.

I want to be stupid. So stupid that I can stop thinking about so many things. The feeling of being absolutely unaware. I won't start projecting the future in my mind. I won't notice the little things that mean so little and yet so much. When I don't I'll stop hesitating and stop doubting and rejecting myself before anything has even happened.

But as the great philosopher Jagger once said: "You can't always get what you want."