It happens...

"It happens." "It'll pass." "Just forget about it."
It did, it might, I can't.

I didn't update this yesterday because I figured, it's not compulsory for a daily update, and besides, I was too busy sleeping to write this.

You know how you think about something and just smile? Yeah, because it rarely happens to me anymore. I've had my head on my hand for the past ten minutes and I could think of was that dizzy feeling I have now.

The day started fine... I woke up for breakfast. Watched a little TV. Sis came back from school and went out again. Went down to buy lunch for me and dad and today's New Paper. Came back, ate lunch while I read the paper, and then played the com for a while. I got frustrated at a race in NFSU I got stuck in (7 lap race in one of the toughest courses), and read a bit of A Maths. Then Jiawen and Jo came over. We took turns on the com. Downloaded some anime soundtracks.

By dinner time Jiawen left, and my mum brought dinner for us. Jo played Gunbound and after a while we watched TV outside. Kept us busy until he left. I came in and wrote this.

Now my eyes are getting heavy. I'm losing my touch for staying up late. Maybe it's the incense, I don't know. Headache, damn. That's it.

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Read Nikki's blog. Had something to say.

Selflessness is the biggest form of selfishness.

Agree? No? Our team had to debate that it wasn't. I think they lost.

Being selfless means what? To deprive yourself for others to benefit. Isn't that somesort of a biasness against yourself?

When you do something, in the end, someone has to benefit. Be it you or your friend, or the poor kid under NKF.

When you go out there, it's all about the one line: Survival of the fittest. Yeah, so, what? You gonna train that other guy up? No point being kind to other people when in the end, you suffer.

If you're nice to me, so you're not an enemy. That doesn't make you a friend. No. You are an acquaintance until we communicate and get to know each other better. Then you are a friend.

Is it on your conscience when you are selfish? It's your choice. You choose if it grapples on you and if it keeps telling you "you're evil, you're mean, you're not human!" Conscience is how people have been telling you to feel when you do something since young, in accordance to their moral principles. Then in turn, you will fit into that frame and adapt that same set of moral values. People who are stricter are conservative, people who are more relaxed are immoral.

It's all about balance. Yeah, that's what they all say. How do you know? You don't. Some don't care. So should you? You could, but how much can you do? How you behave has been a mould of what people around you behave around you.

I'll stop here. Stomachache.